So after a really long time, I felt like I needed to come back and give Tumblr a visit. I have this really large overflowing cup of issues that I need to channel into something… like a blog!

Lately I’ve been having a lot of body positive problems. I wish I were just a tad taller and I want to be skinnier. I want my thighs to be smaller and overall- I just want to feel happy with myself when I look in a mirror. I used to be really confident, but somehow all of that just seemed to fade away. I spent money on makeup and skin products but nothing really seemed to make me feel better. I just felt like I was slathering makeup on in hopes that it would somehow magically make me someone different. 

I also feel like I’ve been looking at the world in a pretty negative light recently too. Maybe the horrible drivers and people with no manners here in Oregon kind of really got to me, but I don’t want to be this way. I prefer to be happy and see the good things. So here goes.

1. I have 2 wonderful, adorable dogs.

2. I have a well-paying job for not having any sort of degree. 

3. I now have health insurance.

4. I made it all the way across the country with my boyfriend with all of our belongings in the car, no idea where to live, and no job set up for us.

5. I have 4 amazing friends that I keep in touch with on a pretty regular basis that have been a really great support system for me, although talking via web or phone isn’t as effective as seeing them in person.

6. I just paid off my credit card!

7. I have a really cool pen pal in Singapore that sends me amazing letters and packages.

8. I am a good writer. In fact, I’ve written 30 pages of a script that was going to be a full feature film, but have recently decided to make it a short film in order to not just cram stuff in to fill it.

9. I just caught a Dratini and was able to evolve it to Dragonite in my Pokemon game! Stupid, I know, but I was pretty excited.

10. My work seems to have gotten a little less dramatic and more bearable than it was initially.

So there’s my 10 positive thoughts for the day. It’s hard to feel them right now, but I plan on trying to take steps to becoming a more positive person.

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Missed you Tumblr! Also miss taking photographs.